Hey family and Friends!
So for the New Year, our mission is doing something called purifying.
We start with a fast, and during that fast we write down anything that comes to mind that your doing that you need to stop doing to feel the spirit completely in your life. And then for about a month you don't do any of the things on your list. And by the end, you will have aligned your will with God's and miracles can occur because of it. I am so excited to do this! I know that if any of you would do this that you will be blessed so much for it!
So this week I have learned a lot. We have been teaching more than I ever have in my life, and I have officially hit my "I care a ton about these people" stage. Before it was like it wasn't my area, I was still an interloper. Now I feel a part of this wonderful area, and I feel so close to the members. I am involved in their lives and am a part of the things happening there, and I love it. But for the first time on my mission, my whole heart is invested in the people of this area. I have found that my prayers are focused almost completely on them. My love for these people is so intense that I hurt when they slip up or make mistakes. I now understand Nephi, when he said:
"For I pray continually for them by day, and mine eyes water my pillow by night, because of them; and I cry unto my God in faith, and I know that he will hear my cry." Just yesterday, a lesson didn't go as it should and one of our investigators hardened his heart so much it was like teaching to a brick wall. He has so much hurt from his past that he is bitter and mad at the world. On the long car ride home I cried, because I realized that I wanted this for him more than he wanted it for himself, he has written himself off as broken and unable to change. That has been hard, but I realized that I need to feel this way, I need to feel so much love for my investors that I want to be a better missionary, It motivates me to do everything in my power to help him.
Dan is going great! He came to church this week and loved it! He is progressing like crazy! We have picked up so many investigators that I have a hard time remembering all of there names, that is kind of a novelty but it's fun! Hermana Spencer is still as awesome as ever! I love her to pieces!!
Love you all so much and pray for you always!
❤ -Sister Emily Williams
Sister Spencer rolled me up like a burrito haha!!
Indiana at its finest
Cute little family in our ward