Dear Family and Friends,
This week has been much of the same stuff, only in hyper drive.
My new companion is awesome! Her name is Hermana Rodriguez, and she is from Arizona.
She had been out the same amount of time as I have so it is a bit stressful to
make sure nothing slips through the cracks. She is an incredible missionary
though and so sweet! It is pretty easy for us to get along
I have learned many things this week, one of which is the power
of the atonement. I feel like I experienced every emotion there is to be felt this
week, and there were many time that I felt doubt and inadequacy creep in and make
me wonder what all this was for. I would have the most incredible lessons with
investigators, or less actives, and feel how much God loves them, and walk out
the lesson feeling like something was missing in my own life. I felt like there
was a hole in my chest that wouldn't close and a heaviness that I couldn't
shake. And I found myself thinking that, "I thought missionaries are spiritual
giants, incapable of feeling this way." When I entered the mission field I
knew that I would experience sorrow, and hard ache, but I always figured it
would be for the people that surround me, not for myself. So I got down on my
knees and I began to pray, and in that moment I realized that all of the advise
and council I was giving to others I wasn't applying in my own life. I wasn't
using the atonement; I wasn't being spiritually lifted. I was giving everything
I had to this work but because I wasn't using the atonement, I was beginning to
burn out. I opened my gospel library app, and open in it was a talk that I had
never read before. It was called: The Sacrament- a Renewal for the Soul. Every
word I read in that talk pierced me to the core. It was the exact words I
needed to hear. In the talk it mentions the enabling power of the atonement,
and how without it, the atonement is incomplete. We often think the atonement
is to rid us of sin only, we forget the enabling power of the atonement that
gives strength and fortifies us against temptation. It also helps us to change
and become more fully the person Heavenly Father wants us to be. I would invite
you all to read this talk, and pray to feel His strength and love that he has
for you. I love you all so much and I pray you have a wonderful week!
Love, Sister Williams
Pictures:
Sister Rodriguez and I helping in primary
Us at a Mexican restaurant low-key trying to teach our waiter
Ran
into some of my favorite people at transfers
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