Dear Family and Friends,
This week has been much of the same stuff, only in hyper drive. My new companion is awesome! Her name is Hermana Rodriguez, and she is from Arizona. She had been out the same amount of time as I have so it is a bit stressful to make sure nothing slips through the cracks. She is an incredible missionary though and so sweet! It is pretty easy for us to get along
I have learned many things this week, one of which is the power of the atonement. I feel like I experienced every emotion there is to be felt this week, and there were many time that I felt doubt and inadequacy creep in and make me wonder what all this was for. I would have the most incredible lessons with investigators, or less actives, and feel how much God loves them, and walk out the lesson feeling like something was missing in my own life. I felt like there was a hole in my chest that wouldn't close and a heaviness that I couldn't shake. And I found myself thinking that, "I thought missionaries are spiritual giants, incapable of feeling this way." When I entered the mission field I knew that I would experience sorrow, and hard ache, but I always figured it would be for the people that surround me, not for myself. So I got down on my knees and I began to pray, and in that moment I realized that all of the advise and council I was giving to others I wasn't applying in my own life. I wasn't using the atonement; I wasn't being spiritually lifted. I was giving everything I had to this work but because I wasn't using the atonement, I was beginning to burn out. I opened my gospel library app, and open in it was a talk that I had never read before. It was called: The Sacrament- a Renewal for the Soul. Every word I read in that talk pierced me to the core. It was the exact words I needed to hear. In the talk it mentions the enabling power of the atonement, and how without it, the atonement is incomplete. We often think the atonement is to rid us of sin only, we forget the enabling power of the atonement that gives strength and fortifies us against temptation. It also helps us to change and become more fully the person Heavenly Father wants us to be. I would invite you all to read this talk, and pray to feel His strength and love that he has for you. I love you all so much and I pray you have a wonderful week!
Love, Sister Williams
Sister Rodriguez and I helping in primary
Us at a Mexican restaurant low-key trying to teach our waiter
Ran into some of my favorite people at transfers